I wanted to apologize for my attitude in the restaurant on Sunday night.
I was still carrying the emotion from the movie, and anything related
to that movie could well up tears in my eyes. I get quite emotional
towards touching movies that deal with one's life, especially, how a
person chooses to live his life.
My passion lies in finding potentials in people and helping them
realize their full potentials. So, when I see people realize their
potentials and live their life to full, especially after their mid
life, I feel really moved.
The life is really short. 80 years is nothing in the history of
universe. In this short amount of time, we live day by day, getting
closer and closer to death every day. But we never think about death
unless we become sick. We think that days like this will continue
forever, and forget that everything has an end to it. We can only live
once, and that's it.
When I think about this, and think how many years are left in my life,
and how I want to live my life, the scene comes to my mind where the
man (Tao in the movie) was riding a swing in the park he devoted his
last moment of his life. When he was faced with death, he stood face
to face with and reflected on how he wanted to live his remaining
life. What he wanted to see was the park where kids can play even
after the rain, and himself watching them from the corner of the park.
He did not care for the promotion or the public recognition. Facing
the death, he reflected on what it means for him to "live" and decided
to start a journey of leadership for himself. It was a short journey,
but he lived a satisfying life.
When I see those people realizing their great potential, even just
before their death, and fulfilling their life until the last moment, I
cannot stop tears. (As I write this, tears are already falling on my
Whether the park is big or small does not matter at this stage. After
all, what we consider our accomplishments are all very minor in the
context of history anyway.
I wanted to explain what was going through my mind when I was watching
movie and in the restaurant. I could not explain it fully at that
I was not upset at your comments. Even if you have different
perspectives from mine, that's ok because we are all different. It
would be nice to sometimes talk about our views, values, how we want
to live our lives, what matters most to us, which movies moved our
emotion and why, etc. When you asked me "I thought you knew me
better", I realized I didn't know much about your values or how you
wanted to live your life. We seldom talk about these things, but I
think they are important for understanding each other.
But in any case, I should not have cried in the restaurant and made
you feel awkward. Sorry about that.
最終更新日 2007年03月27日 15時24分39秒
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