The dream...

I had a dream few days ago...it was about her...was a really sweet to me..we were in the train sitting next to each other.. we were in the relationship of the same in real life, not bf gf relationship. But we were so close in the dream..somehow i tried to hold her hands and i did it..it's been long time that i didnt feel her..it really made me happy..i really didnt want the dream finish...but next thing was that i was crying again in the dream...think i was too happy about holding hands with her...I really miss doing with her...Then i woke up while i was crying in the dream...then i relized that it was a dream.. and it made me more sad.. coz i wasnt actually holding her...it was just a dream....know how i feel?? thought i had what i wanted, but the next moment it was a dream..it really sucks..i think it's the first time to be awake with crying...I really feel that she is so important to me.. I dont know what she has been doing these days..coz we hardly talk..I mean I hardly talk to her.....i dont know what to talk... but what i know now is I really miss her...I really get pissed when she is with other guys...but have no right to say at all...but i can get jealous right?