4月25日は尾崎豊の命日です。。。あれから32年
1992年尾崎の母親が死んたという歌「Mama,say good-bye」が入ったアルバムが5/10に発売になると、楽しみに、色々な小説を読んだり、歌を聴いたりちょうど、そのころ付き合っていた鳥取の人に、尾崎で好きな曲ばかりまとめて送ったりしてたんじゃないかな。。。詩も全部ワープロにいれてZは車検に通らなくて、鳥取のSHOPにおいてけぼり八幡に解体屋があると、寮の同期の人間につれてってもらってる途中だったカーステから、流れる尾崎の曲なんで?っと思ったら訃報。。。ニュースで尾崎の名前が出てきたとき、また何かやったのか?と思ったそのほうが良かった二度と尾崎のLiveを見に行けないなんて。。。1日、どこのスピーカーからも、尾崎の声が聞こえてきたMama,say good-bye俺は、尾崎がいなくなった気持ちで唄った。。。そして、ずっと支えてきてくれた母親がいなくなって。。。尾崎は、どんな気持ちだったのかどんな想いで、酒を飲んで。。。暴れて一人で行ってしまったんだろうか。。。いままで。。。大切な人を、何人も失った。なんで、本当にいい人ばかり、なんで、あんなに急に、いなくなってしまうんだろうそして。。。大震災何の罪も無い、たくさんの人々が奪われた。。。そして、まだ、たくさんの人が苦しんでいる世界的な新型コロナのパンデミック若者の身勝手な行動とマスコミの過剰報道に、自粛警察など。。。こんなとき、尾崎が生きていたら。。。どう思ったのか。。。どう動いただろうかどう唄っただろうか。。。尾崎がいなくなってから、たまたま書いた英語弁論の現行毎回だしてるけどね。。。たいしたこと書いてないやOZAKI,WISH YOU WERE HERE Yukaka Ozaki died on 25th Aplil.Like his other fans,I was very sad.What image do you of him?One meaning was that Yutaka Ozaki was most important singer.He taught us to be serious.He sang whispering by his charisma.He fought the image that was made by his fans and the mass-media.26 years of Ozaki that might be proof of his fight.At his debut in 1984,Sinjyuku Ruiido was soldo out.The foremost part of the seats were emcamped by his friends,they came after their graduation ceremony.Ozaki was not present at his graduation ceremony.He was determined to be singing in the professional world.Motoharu Sano,at his debut in 1980,found the clue of message songs.Shogo Hamada was on a plain live tour day and night.In this generation,Ozaki appear-ed with strong shock and he rediscovered the song with message.His songs were very good,and were powerful in expressing his ideas and his spirit.He did not rely on abstractionism.His words were concrete.His songs were critical of the social system.But the mass-media portrayed him as if he was the founder of a sect with society's final answers.For example,he sang "I felt myself geting freedom"in his song "The night".This expression imaged despair and reality.But various magazins wrote "if you listen,you will get freedom".He produced three album ,"Seventeen's Map", "Tropic of Graduation", and "Through the Broken Door".But,after the "Last Teenage Appearance"live performance,he stopped performing.It looked he wanted to throw away his selfexistent mass-media's image.And then,he went to New York.One year later,he came back,and he started the "Trees Lining a Street Tour".But,it was not easy.During his break,his image had expanded in Japan.He was under strong pressures.And he was arrested for drugs.In that predicament,he bore his answer.He said that in the essay,I shall read to you now.Since we've learned to climb the high ridge,we can show the smile in the surge of the wind.We've been longing to stand at nearest part from the blue in the sky.Since we've thirsty because of the smell of the water brought by the wind we can bite a lemon.So,we left as it the yellow lights are splashing.Since we've been longinght or freedom,we could get a image of our flags.Inso many colors they were trembling.We climbed our ridge.Our legs tend to be wounded and our voice in unison tend to be baded away into the wind.Yet what we've been longing was to stand at the rearest part from the blue inthe sky.Trembling backs of leaves are shining in white,and it seems minutes passing by.We've promised each other again and again,so we wouldn't get lost.However,our enemies are living inside of ourselves indeed.Facing each other with smiling,we've gras ping the keys of our castle walls.Freedom is always ruined by ourselves for the first time,indeed.By the side,I would get the tinkle of the bunch of the keys.Since "he" tends to get lost is sitting on the guardrail at midnight,never to lose his way.The lights of the mercury lamps put the shadowsof unity of the leaves on the street,at his feet.On the map thathas millions of mingled points, "he" runs to the place where two of them have promised to meet.And then, "he" has been waiting for her.After a while,we're still alone.So,it must be sure of us to meet whom creates somebody each other .Since "he"has been sitting on the guardrail, (he keeps) looking at the street.After a while he could get the shadow of driving by her.he would think that "if we would get lost,I must be terribly sad".Since he has caught her klaxon,he stands up and shows a smile.For the words that can be lost.For the fists put on the table to make the mind scream.For the kindness to keep creating ourselves by us.He will leave the guardrail and raise his hand.And then he produced an album "Trees Lining a street",to appeal to the importance of love.And then he got married and had a child.And he produced an album called "Birth".One year later,he produced an album called "Confession for Exist", in sadness at his mother's death.In his song "Birth",he said "everybody's birth is not a misstake".And he sangto the importance of life in two albums .But he is not alive now.What would hehave sung next? He sang and wrote about universal problem of pepole.He looked at reality by his mind,and he did not escape.Therefore,just now,I wish you to understand him correctly,to listen to the heritage of his words and his song without being confused by mass-media's image of him.I miss Ozaki,but I keep him in my mind.And we must live with his strength,and his kindness.We don't foreget YUTAKA OZAKI. この時新人研修をしていた会社も23年で、とうとう卒業猫ちゃんたちも、みんないなくなってしまった2022には、尾崎展見に行ったSep 24, 2022 OZAKI30 LAST STAGE 尾崎豊展ちょっとグッズは買う気にはならなかったけど。。。クッションとかとくに。。。あと、誕生日のキーホルダーって。。。昔、街路樹ツアーで買ったパンフと、キーホルダーどっかにあるはずだけど。。。本もたくさんある。ファンクラブとかは入ってなかったから、会報とかないけど、失くした1/2は、本当に、何度も繰り返し読んだ授業中、ずっと、何度も繰り返し、詩を、心の中で、歌って。。。周りが。。。同級生も、兄弟も、大人も、何もかも嫌いだった。自分も。。。。あれから32年。。。色々なことがたくさんあって、たくさんのものを失くして。。。自転車に乗りながら、、、部屋に閉じこもって、、、尾崎の言葉を叫んでいた少年は何故か人前でギターをかきならして尾崎の言葉を叫ぶようになっています。。。H/K AGESは今年で27周年に。。。これからも、ずっと、独りで、生きて、叫んでいくことを覚悟して。。。。。昨年、今年と、LIVEは2回しかできてないが、独りで叫ぶしかない。。。ずっと独りなのは、確信した叫ぶしかない。。。叫べていない。。。あと、尾崎が、いなくなってから、何年も経ってから生まれたのだけど熱狂的なファンの、おしょーさんの誕生日えっ。。。うちのブログに来てくれてて頃は、まだ学生だったけど。。。もう28歳なんだ。。。元気にしてるかな。。。尾崎豊 きっと忘れない街の暮らしにもすこしずつ慣れてきて君の笑顔も素敵になってゆくようさ忘れられない心の傷みの悲しみも今夜全てを吹き消して流れてゆく 変わってゆく 街灯りも形を変え頬杖をついたまま 見つめてる 夜が訪れるHappy Birthday いつだって君を忘れはしないHappy Birthday 君が好きさ 心をこめて生まれてきた喜びに 君が包まれるように今日という日を祝うよ Happy Birthday to You時の流れも見つからなくなるほどに辛く孤独に過ごした日々もあったさだけどいつかはそんな悲しみも報われると信じて過ごした日々もあるいつも夢を忘れないで 季節の中でうつろう君探している答えに心が 届かなくてもHappy Birthday いつだって君は大丈夫さHappy Birthday 君が好きさ 心をこめて探している優しさに 君が包まれるように今日という日を祝おう Happy Birthday to You誰だって いつの日にか 振り返る時が来るのだから忘れないで 毎日は ささやかな 君へのプレゼントHappy Birthday いつだって君を忘れはしないHappy Birthday 君が好きさ 心をこめて生まれてきた喜びに 君が包まれるように今日という日を祝うよ Happy Birthday to YouHappy Birthday いつだって君を忘れはしないHappy Birthday 君が好きさ 心をこめて生まれてきた喜びに 君が包まれるように今日という日を祝うよ Happy Birthday to You